Last day of orientation was today and they dropped a crap ton on top of me for work to do. Along with it I also got several hallmarks of a doctor - DEA number (number that lets me prescribe drugs), my long white coat (students have to wear short ones that look pretty dumb), and drum roll....my medical license ohhhh ahhhhh! (it's like a drivers license, but it's easier to kill people with it). That was gallows humor, sorry if it seems callus, I really am pretty freaked out about the whole doctor thing, because tomorrow I'm on the NICU as an actual doctor. Crazy! Tomorrow at 6am I'm gonna be taking care of little babies and people are going to expect me to know what I'm doing...probably not the "know what I'm doing" thing, but I gotta wear the pants...I'm not going to sleep tonight. (actually I got 2 tylenol pm's says I will).
If there had to be a theme of today it was STRESS: HOW RESIDENCY WILL DESTROY YOUR LIFE AND CHANGE WHO YOU ARE AS A PERSON. We had several lectures just on this. You know that's what they said about medical school and they were right it grew me up alot and I'm sure residency/internship will be worse like they are saying, but from here I just can't comprehend it so I'm not going to worry about it if I can help it. If I have people reading this, you'll get to see it's effect on me probably more than I will - I often don't realize how stressed I am until whatever is stressing me is over. Send me a comment if you think you see some cries for help or suicidal comments in my writing ;P
Sorry I don't have more to write about. I'm sure I'll have something for you tomorrow (it's going to be a wild ride). Also I am writing about some of my med school experiences - there is this one that I've been saying I'd put to paper for a long time as it is hilarious, I know I've got the worst, most embarrassing 1st day experience in all of the medical school students in 2010 if not all time, but your gonna have to wait on that one because I want it a little more well written than these blurbs I put out. Alright I'm out. Peace.
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