This is hard to write about. It's one of those times I'm going to have to fight the urge to say I did excellent today, that I came prepared, and I was the best doc in the room.
The truth is I didn't do excellent today, I wasn't prepared, and I for sure wasn't the best doc in the room. Today was PALS testing (Pediatric Advanced Life Support) where they teach/test us to save children who are "crashing". Yesterday was perfect when I was practicing it in the first class but today it's testing and I find it's one of those days where all the coffee in the world won't put you back together again. They have these "decision-trees" for how patients present to you ect. Yesterday I flew through them and today I'm crawling. Not to mention the knowledge portion which I'm usually good (no matter what) - I open the test book and I can't keep a read sentence in my head, which makes deciding clinical treatment kinda hard. All in all, just in case you were holding your breath...I passed, but barely. I'd be more worried about my professional future except that I used to do these when I was a fourth year in medical school (before I had 4 weeks of sitting on my butt not thinking about medicine) give me some rest, which at this point sadly is much needed, and some studying/practicing and I'll be back to snuff - its just a constant assault on your pride when everyone else seems to be a walking, talking baby-doc...and you find yourself crawling. :S
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