Keep On Keeping On

So I've been crazy busy since talking to you last. I've felt really guilty about not blogging and I finally had to post something in between patient care and rounding, because it was bothering me.  My second call went much better, the little "blinking lights" weren't as frequent and there wasn't as many medical problems requiring my intervention...I was also alot better about ignoring the stupid questions and the unimportant ones.  I got 1 hour of sleep that night, which I'm told is very good for the usual...but I also admitted way more than I did the night before 5 patients versus 3 patients.

Currently I have a kid in that is a big question mark.  She has bilateral lower extremity weakness, pain, swelling and a rash...it's looking like it was either a resolving infection...or less likely leukemia (which you need a very painful bone marrow biopsy to confirm)...clinically though he is getting better, although his labs are either negative or the ones that are positive for wierdness :P are standing still (not getting better). I'll write more on her in my next post.  There is also my other patient who is a lesson in medical communication - three teams manage her care and each team has a different idea for her care...I'm stuck in the middle trying to manage ego's and poor communicators, it's rediculous - I just want to put them in a room and toss in a knife.."Fight to the Death!!!". 

Other than that the baby and my wife are doing well...as well as can be expected.  I get up early but she gets up EARLY...like 3:45am every day and works till 6 or 7.  She says she's fine but I don't know anybody who would work that and not feel overworked, she's a cute little trooper...oh yeah and I forgot, she will work this for another two weeks straight (that's 3 weeks without a single day off!). 

I really can't complain with her having a schedule like that, but I'm very busy too, it seems like things around the house never get done and my "to do" list is stagnent - I can't check emails because I don't have the time and now I think I'm not checking emails because I'm scared of how much crap there is to do in them...not a good coping strategy.  Sounds like I'm panicing but really it gets like this in medicine alot...you'll either have a psycotic breakdown or you'll blow a fuse and quit caring so much.  I'm more of the latter, I resign myself with doing the best I can for my wife, my patients, and finally me...I console myself by saying "Just put one foot in front of the other and you'll be through before you know it."  I'm on the low part of my "wave" right now, but I get through it because I know for a low point to exist, there has to be a high one...and it's coming...hopefully soon :P

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Wards is very, very, very busy.